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14 February 2013 @ 04:58 pm
Going Home  
Title: Going Home
Pairing: KyuSung
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Mild-angst
Wordcount: 1.186
Summary: The decision is made, Kyuhyun is returning home.

A/N: MEH. Song used: Daughtry – Home. I know it’s sucky, but it might be the last fic you see of me, so please try to enjoy it ^^;;
Written for kyusungcentral's Valentine's Day Songfic Festival

Going Home

Kyuhyun shifted from one uncomfortable position into another. He had known that flying from America to South Korea in the cheapest seats available wouldn’t do him much good, but he hadn’t known it would be this painful.

This pain however, was in no way comparable with the pain he had felt the day he had left South Korea, including his family and his friends. And Jongwoon, of course. Jongwoon, who had always been the stronger one in their relationship, had cried in Kyuhyun’s arms when they were saying their goodbyes at the airport, as if they would never see each other again as soon as Kyuhyun had taken off. Kyuhyun himself, realizing that he couldn’t break down as well, had held strong until he had arrived at his seat, and only then had started to cry and had continued doing so for nearly the entire trip to America. All the flight attendants had tried to sooth him, to make him stop, but to no avail. They could in no way understand what he was going through.

But all of that happened a year and a half ago. Today, he was finally going home. And whatever pain he had to endure to return to the place he had most accomplished, to return to the happy life he deserved, was completely worth it.

“What? You can’t come home Kyuhyun! You aren’t done yet,” Jongwoon had said in mild anger when Kyuhyun had called to inform he was planning to return home. That he was tired of staying any longer in America, doing nothing but wasting his money and seeing the same room and people day in day out. He also just wanted to return to Jongwoon, but he hadn’t said that out loud. It was a pride-thing.

“I am done, there is nothing left for me to do here,” Kyuhyun had replied, on which Jongwoon had instantly replied that he was being an extreme idiot who had to use his brain for once. A painful remark, and the rest of the evening pretty much involved Jongwoon apologizing to him, and Kyuhyun trying to tell him that his insult actually had been rather funny, in an ironic kind of way.

His parents hadn’t been too pleased about his decision either. His dad told him he was being a fool, a fool who ran away from a possible positive future, only to run towards a more negative one, while his mom just cried and told him she hoped he wasn’t making a rash decision. Much did they know that rash decisions were all that there was left for Kyuhyun to make.

A jolt of pain travelled through Kyuhyun, from his forehead to his lower back, and he moaned as silently as he could. The small child next to him stared at him in fear, and Kyuhyun tried to smile at him to let him know everything was okay, but failed horribly. The kid panicked even more and ran off, much to a flight attendant’s dismay.

Kyuhyun wondered where the kid’s mom was, but as the pain only increased more and more, nearly until it became unbearable, he stopped caring about it. His head and back were literally killing him.

“Sir, are you alright?” a smiling attendant asked, and Kyuhyun nodded as soon as he had managed to make eye-contact. He couldn’t answer verbally, as he was quite sure a completely different, and most likely disturbing sound would come out of his mouth if he were to open it. The attendant was contented with his answer though, as she took off as soon as he had started nodding very unconvincingly. Kyuhyun wondered if behind that lovely smile of hers was a woman who didn’t even care about her job. It irritated Kyuhyun mildly; he would kill for a job.

Kyuhyun moaned silently for a second time, happy the small kid had already left so he couldn’t hear that as well, and slowly lifted up his arm to check on his watch. It wasn’t working anymore, and in fact it had stopped showing time a year ago, but he still wore it every single day and he was extremely happy to see he hadn’t forgotten to put it on his wrist before taking off in a rush because he had some trouble checking out of the place he had stayed for the past year and a half.

“They say this watch will never stop ticking. So for as long as it shows time, I will love you, Cho Kyuhyun,” Jongwoon said, a loving glint in his eyes and a large smile on his face.

The memory still made Kyuhyun smile, and there was no pain able to stop him from smiling now as well. Jongwoon had been so silly believing that TV commercial that had said this watch would never stop working, because no technology in the world would make a watch work forever when it was driven by a battery. But because the moment had been so magical, Kyuhyun had for once resisted the urge to make a witty remark. How could he make one, anyway? It had been their first valentine’s day together, and Kyuhyun wanted it to be special. And it had been. And so had the 3 valentine’s days they’d had after the first one. The 5th Valentine’s Day had been the most horrible one. And for the 6th, Kyuhyun hadn’t been in Korea anymore, and it was spend over the phone.

Kyuhyun had missed Korea immensely, but it was incomparable with how much he had missed Jongwoon, despite their daily 1-hour minimum calls. The only thing that Kyuhyun really needed was Jongwoon. Jongwoon beside him, Jongwoon with him, Jongwoon holding his hand, Jongwoon kissing him, Jongwoon on top of him, Jongwoon inside him. His love was what made Kyuhyun fight every single day over and over again, and what made it all worth it.

“Excuse me, how much longer is this flight going to take?” A middle-aged woman asked, and Kyuhyun glanced up from his watch.

“Three more hours, miss,” a voice answered.

Three more hours to be reunited with Jongwoon. For many a few hours were nothing, but Kyuhyun deeply wished the plane would be able to go much faster. Even though his watch didn’t work any longer, his precious time was still ticking away non stoppingly.

“How much time do I have?” Kyuhyun asked the doctor, determined with his decision of stopping treatment and returning home. His doctor hadn’t been happy, but there was nothing he could do to make Kyuhyun continue treatment. 5% chance of curing hadn’t been enough for Kyuhyun, and somehow, his doctor understood.

“1 month,” he had answered, facing his desk as it saddened him even more than it saddened Kyuhyun.


That had been 2 weeks ago. But any second Kyuhyun had with Jongwoon, he would spend wisely. He only needed to figure out how to tell Jongwoon how much time he had left. But that was a worry for later. Right now, he was going home, and he had no regrets whatsoever with the future he had chosen for himself.

Fin.
 
 
 
tsukinosoratsukinosora on February 14th, 2013 09:56 pm (UTC)
mild angst? MILD ANGST? T.T it shocked me, when I read the last few paragraphs D: *bursts out crying*

His parents hadn’t been too pleased about his decision either. His dad told him he was being a fool, a fool who ran away from a possible positive future, only to run towards a more negative one, while his mom just cried and told him she hoped he wasn’t making a rash decision. Much did they know that rash decisions were all that there was left for Kyuhyun to make.

T____T that's so sad ... and now I really wonder, what kind of illness it is. DD: poor, poor Kyuhyun and poor Yesung and .... sdksjlkdgjsldg T...T

“Excuse me, how much longer is this flight going to take?” A middle-aged woman asked, and Kyuhyun glanced up from his watch.

“Three more hours, miss,” a voice answered.

Three more hours to be reunited with Jongwoon. For many a few hours were nothing, but Kyuhyun deeply wished the plane would be able to go much faster. Even though his watch didn’t work any longer, his precious time was still ticking away non stoppingly.

“How much time do I have?” Kyuhyun asked the doctor, determined with his decision of stopping treatment and returning home. His doctor hadn’t been happy, but there was nothing he could do to make Kyuhyun continue treatment. 5% chance of curing hadn’t been enough for Kyuhyun, and somehow, his doctor understood.

“1 month,” he had answered, facing his desk as it saddened him even more than it saddened Kyuhyun.


*starts sobbing* T....T any chance of a sequel for that?? though I see from the up-to-now story development that there is near to 0 chance for happy heartwarming ending, I'd love to read more about Kyuhyun's condition and what happened and ... and ... T.T

All in all, I really really loved the fic! The partially-hidden angst in it is awesome!! To be honest, Yewook is my OTP, but I like fics with lots of different pairings, as long as the story is good.~~ Looking forward to more fics from you!! ^^
sujulovenlsujulovenl on February 18th, 2013 12:28 pm (UTC)
Sorryyyy ㅋㅋㅋㅋ I have written worse, so I figured this should be mild haha xP

I honestly thought about writing a sequel or a prequel to this, but I think the ending is too sad to continue with it xP I dunno how it can possibly be a happy or pleasant thing to read, while you know Kyuhyun will eventually die. It'll be too sad to do, yeah ;~; Besides, my friends will kill me if I kill an SJ member in one of my stories again ㅋㅋㅋ And then it's a non-happy ending for both Kyuhyun AND me XD

And thank youuu :D I'm so happy to hear you liked it, and even with YeWook being your OTP! :D I'm not sure whether I will write something again, but a comment like yours sure makes me eager to write something ^^ I might when I have time and motivation <3
junnosukex3junnosukex3 on February 15th, 2013 04:47 pm (UTC)
OMG ;_; I didn't see it coming AT ALL !!

It's awfuly saaaaaaaaad u_u Poor them...

But I'm glad to read something from you again ^^

Thanks !
sujulovenlsujulovenl on February 18th, 2013 12:30 pm (UTC)
It is sad ;~; and this was written for VALENTINE'S DAY LOL! But I was just following the prompt ^^;; I think if you listen to the song -my prompt- you'll get why it ended like this xP

I am happy to see a comment from you again <3 Thank you for reading :D
littlemenomarulittlemenomaru on February 16th, 2013 03:53 am (UTC)
Unnie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TT~TT

I'll give my official comment tomorrow after work when I'm done trying not to cry.
littlemenomarulittlemenomaru on February 17th, 2013 05:59 am (UTC)
OKay, Okay....I'm all good now.....I think.

Yay, see you still have it, you can write. Don't give up on me (and everyone else). Just write as you can even if it's angsty and sad stuff like this especially since we all know that's your strong point.

But oh man, I spent most of this wondering why did KYU GO TO AMERICA? and why did he leave Yesung? and why was he deciding now to come back?
Anf then the end happened and I was ready to just tear up and start bawling. I wasn't expecting it to be him dying. Why must he be dying?

WHY DID YOU ALL POST DEPRESSING AND ANGSTY VALENTINE'S DAY FICs?

But I'm glad that at least he decided to spend his last bit of time with Jongwoon. Even if it hurt him even more just to travel to see him. Getting to be with him once again before he would pass on must make all the pain in the world worth it. And even if Jongwoon would hate to see him go, I bet he would be happy to spend his last moments actually there and not half way across the world.

I wish it was longer, but I;m glad for what I got, and well if it was longer I might not have made it without actually crying and end up just sitting in my bed hugging my pig-rabbit and crying myself to sleep. That wouldn't have been good for work this morning.

So Unnie I'll try not to cry and go back to working on you fic soon ^^ My computer is back and all set back up. Just got to type up the parts of stories that I wrote in my notebook. WHich includes part of chapter 3 of yours ^^.

^^♥
sujulovenlsujulovenl on February 18th, 2013 12:33 pm (UTC)
Cute how it took you a day to be okay again XD

And I guess I do :D The reactions have been a lot more positive than I thought it would be, so getting "forced" into posting this has been a good thing to me, actually ^^ I can't wait to get my house done, so maybe I can start writing more actively again <3 Since I'll be much on my own then, I'll have more time and more peace to actually write ㅋㅋㅋ Suddenly not feeling like quitting anymore ;>

Anyway, sorry about the end!! XD But if you listen to the song which was my prompt, I guess it's understandable 8) And I just missed writing angst tbh, this was a perfect oppertunity to write what I WANT again xP Well, not that I want him to die, but I just like angst stories better =( Though, I know I can do better than what I wrote here, but guess it's a nice tryout :)

And I want a picture of your pig-rabbig hmmkay. It must be adorable ㅋㅋㅋ

Thanks for reading my lovely Liz <3
littlemenomarulittlemenomaru on February 18th, 2013 03:17 pm (UTC)
Well I did also have work inbetween and then finding time to come back and comment :p

Mhmm, don't doubt me next time :p Yeah, everyone still loves your writing^^ especially me. So yeah once you're all moved in, make yourself a writing space and start working^^

I know, it's okay. I saw your conversation with Naz before it got posted. XD But you know me, I'm a fluff person. ^^ And at least it was Kyu this time and not Yesung...again. Seriously too many people will write Jongwoon as the dead/dying one, it's time Kyu got a turn.

Okay, Okay I'll send one on Twitter soon.

Always Unnie^^

^^♥
phoenix_soar: kyusungcomfortablephoenix_soar on February 16th, 2013 07:04 am (UTC)
When I read this on ffn, I nearly flipped a table >.<
It started off so sweet and cute, and gave me warm fuzzies reading about Kyuhyun's happiness and eagerness to get back to Jongwoon.
Then I was mildly puzzled about why he suddenly started feeling pain and scaring away lil kids haha, but in retrospect, I should have started suspecting by that point that Bianca-patented-character-death was on the way. D':

The ending, Umma, the ending~ /sobs and clings/
But I still love this and I love you and here have all my creys~

(Your last fic? ... I won't ask since I know you have your reasons, but please know that us readers - even me, who is still in the middle of catching up all the fics missed heh ^^; - really appreciate and love your fics. <3)
sujulovenlsujulovenl on February 18th, 2013 12:37 pm (UTC)
I am extremely curious what ffn is :o Really, what is ffn? This question has been eating me since you posted this comment XD

Am sorry about the ending D: I blame the song. Honestly, if I had used the song you had chosen (WHICH I WANTED!) it wouldn't have ended this sad XD Well, at least not with someone about to die LOL. I blame you xO Nah, your fic was like the best I read this far form the event, so I am happy you chose that song ㅋㅋㅋ I should comment on your fic, but I am extremely lazy when it comes to commenting, so I hope you are okay with the twitter-comments D': Umma is getting old, can't do too much work on one day anymore~

And when this got posted I was so writer-depressed that I just wanted to quit XD But the comments I got on this actually give me some strenght, and I still do feel like continuing to try to write ^^ So this might not be the last fic of me after all 8) Thanks for your kind words, my crazy but cutest (and only) son <3
phoenix_soar: kyusungcomfortablephoenix_soar on February 19th, 2013 10:44 am (UTC)
Oops. That was supposed to be AFF lol XD
Not FFN (that is fanfiction.net ;))

Oh no worries, Bi :D I'm just happy to know that you read and liked it, that's enough for me <33

*hugs*
I love you, my crazy pervy Umma~ >8D
charismavicharismavi on February 17th, 2013 12:38 pm (UTC)
Bianca, it's nice to see you again..I also don't spend much time writing for I concentrate yself for my thesis huhuhu..
Now , I know why it's Mild-Angst...Kyuhyun was sick, he only had a month to live, and he was on his way home to meet Jongwoon to spend his precious time...The DC will be coming along the line T_T

It's been a long time, and even when I, myself don't spend much time here, I'm still looking forward for your fics :D Wish U all the best Bianca :D
sujulovenlsujulovenl on February 18th, 2013 12:40 pm (UTC)
Yes hi! It has been quite a while, I believe ^^ I hope you are doing okay at school! Do well on your Thesis, you'll be so happy when it's all over ㅋㅋㅋ Good luck! :D

Thank you for your lovely comment <3 It gives me a lot of strenght ^^
yeyepapoyeyepapo on February 21st, 2013 01:08 pm (UTC)
haloo unnieee i decide to come back to lj after looooong time i abandon my lj.. and then i found this story...
is it already end?? but kyu haven't met yesung... :(
CloudyJaefengxia2208 on April 9th, 2013 08:53 pm (UTC)
My poor dorm mates... :(
So I read this 3 times already.... And promptly started bawling, and the first thing you must realized about me, I DON'T EVER CRY :( but then I read this and did.... But back to my original comment.... My dorm mate and friend walked in right after I read this and flipped.... I mean we've only really known each other for a few months and she had never seen me cry... Not when we read the kite runner, not when we watched Titanic, not even when one of our close friends transferred out (don't get me wrong, I'm not insensitive or cold or rude or anything, I just don't cry easily), but this must have just struck a nerve...
Anyhow, I LOVE IT... My poor Kyu Hyun and poor Jong woon..... The story was just SO touching yet so sweet but SO SAD!
A direct quote:
"That had been 2 weeks ago. But any second Kyuhyun had with Jongwoon, he would spend wisely. He only needed to figure out how to tell Jongwoon how much time he had left. But that was a worry for later. Right now, he was going home, and he had no regrets whatsoever with the future he had chosen for himself."
This is in no way shape or form mild-angst....
I love the ending way though in a touching-sweet yet devastatingly sad way :{
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